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Abbie Cummmms – a real time BDSM Journal (The Beginning)
4/14/2008
JayMac
I just wanted to let you know that i loved your story! I just recently really got into any BDSM stuff! But i felt like i was really in the story itself not just because of the way you wrote it, but it was close to home! I live not very far from Santa Barbara, and i am moving to the Inland Empire in about a week... your story really turned me on, and especially on a personal level... i just thought i would share a few thoughts with you!
~Abbie
4/15/08
Hey Abbie,
Thank you for your comments. I'm happy CL Woman turned you on. I'm interested to know what level personal arousal you experienced. Please drop me a line or two about those particulars.
Have you clicked on my Author's profile? There are three questions there for any woman who's inclined to respond. I'd be interested in how you might answer them.
It just so happens I do contract work in Ontario several days each month, so when you get settled in after your move and if you're interested in expanding your recent experiences - who knows? I'm an experienced and patient teacher and over the last thirty years I've helped more than one naughty girl explore her limits.
JayMac
4/16/08
Hello JayMac!
i am very happy to hear back from you! Well like i had told you in the previous email i haven’t been exposed to BDSM for too long. i would have never imagined in my wildest dreams that i would get turned on by this or by your story. But now it has become a craving, like i need to have the humiliation, the spanking, the punishments, the clamps, and the whips....
Even when i was introduced to this lifestyle i would have never thought that scatology, watersports or beastiality would even be close to turning me on.... reading your story has made me want to try new things, and to explore all possibilities. Honestly, the whole idea still makes me nervous, but who isn’t scared of the unknown?
And in my personal experience right now, my girlfriend is a sub and her husband is a Dom, she has been kind enough to share Him with me until i can find my own Master. But unfortunately for me he isn’t in to scat, watersports or beastiality so i will never know what this is about... i would like to explore everything and then choose my liking and then stick to it. And hopefully find my Master that way.
i feel that the more i know and have experienced would be better not only for myself but for my 'future' Master (you could say) would make me know how to be a better slut to him, and that would make me even more happy knowing that if i can please him the right way he can do the same to me.
i hope that answered your questions on your Author's profile and the ones you had in your e-mail. And it just might be a great for me if you help me with experiencing what you have!
i can’t wait to hear from you!
~Abbie
4/16/08
Abbie,
As Mr. Burns says when he peaks his fingertips, 'Excelllent!'
I'm off to work right now but I'll get back to you later tonight. In the mean time, lets experiment with a bit of on-line play. I want you to find some time to step into the shower and choose a toy or something from the bath room - a toilet brush or perhaps a bottle of shampoo with a long neck - and use your imagination. Squatting, on hands and knees, with your ass filled or on your back with your legs wide spanking your clit, take your time and slowly bring yourself to the edge of orgasm while you think about what you'd like to experience upon the occasion of our first encounter. Imagine I'm there watching you pull your fingers from your freshly fucked asshole then hesitantly suck each one while you piss yourself.
Then with a toy in your nasty hole and your hair still wet from your shower, imagine that you're sitting on my lap with my cock up your ass and send me an email describing in some detail what you did and what you want. I love to play for hours, taking my slut through multiple orgasms while we watch porn.
Please me if you can,
Jay Mac
4/17/08
Jay Mac,
Well i got Your message a little late, I’m sorry about that. However, i did take a shower after i read Your email :) Well, when i was ready to jump in the shower I grabbed a bottle of body wash that is in a shape of a beer bottle, that was the only thing availible at that time. i started to run the water and had the urge to pee, I didnt yet anyway... so i got into the shower screwed on the cap to my body wash tightly and started to rub it along my pussy until i got wet. After i was wet i put the bottle in to my pussy and got it all nice and wet with my juices, when it was ready i slowly started to put it in to my ass until i had gone in as far as the bottle would let me (i was hoping to get more loose but couldn’t.) Then i took the bottle out of my ass, squatted in the shower and put 2 fingers in my ass and started to follow instructions by spanking my clit. It felt just wonderful! And hadn’t taken a piss yet, i brought myself to an orgasm (that was just wonderful btw) and as soon as i had my orgasm, i took my fingers out of my as and without question licked them off, no later then i had my orgasm, i had to pee!
And now i’m laying in bed and emailing You back with my dildo in my ass! Have been thinking about what i would like to do when we meet, and i want it to be like my first time even exploring the lifestyle. i haven’t learned much just being a slut and obeying orders. You said You have helped plenty of girls and I’m sure they ended up with great knowledge and even better experiences, i would like to be in that category... if You would let me.
~Abbie
4/17/08
Abbie,
Again, most excellent. I've attached a jpg so you can see what you're getting yourself into. If possible I expect to see your face or perhaps something even more interesting. I'll send you another training assignment when I get back from work tonight.
Jay Mac
4/18/08
Abbie,
I almost forgot tonight's on-line training assignment. You need to go outside and find a green switch. A willow would be good, bamboo would be better, but if you can't find a switch that suits your taste then go to your closet and find a wire coat hanger. Twist the switch or wire so that you've got a nice loop and then secure the little beasty so that you've got at least a foot of swishy pain. Have a few drinks and when you really feel the need to pee, take that favorite dildo of yours and with just a thin film of lube, work it all the way up your ass.
Go into the bathroom and sit on the toilet with your legs spread wide. Slowly work your fingers into you wet pussy and play with the feel of that switch on your tits. Keep working more of your fingers into you wet hole and see how much you can take. Try for more and more until you're right at the hairy edge of orgasm then bring that switch loop down on your clit. Keep whipping your clit and working those fingers deep into you pussy. Each time you strike a little harder and fuck yourself a little deeper, and tell yourself what kind of slut you want to be. There are bonus points if you can manage a fist.
Keep count and when you can't stand another second, whip your clit and labia six more times as hard as you can, then imagine my voice giving you permission to come and pee. Let that hot piss pour over your hand and then bring your fingers to your lips and... well, do what a filthy sub slut is supposed to do to please her audience.
If you can handle that, then get down on your knees and slowly pull that dildo out of your ass, or use it to fuck your nasty hole while you spank your swollen pussy and lick your pee from the toilet seat. After you suck all your ass slime from that dildo, you then have permission to come again.
Then send me an email and tell me all about why a nasty girl would allow a dirty old man to make her degrade herself in her own bathroom.
Jay Mac
4/18/08
Jay Mac,
Thank You for the pic! now here is one for You... sadly i dont have any naughty pics
~Abbie
4/18/08
Abbie,
Just got your picture and it is "Most Excellent!!" I'm pleased to see that you appear to be a plump little sub bunny!! I love to watch a big bottom bounce under a paddle or my belt. As far as your not having any naughty pics, we'll have to explore that possibility at a later date. I've sent you your homework assignment for tonight and look forward to your obedient response.
I'm ready to have a conversation and if you send me a phone number, I'm free tomorrow until 3:00 pm and I'd love to chat. Let me know when it would be convenient for me to call. I have visitors in town this weekend, but since you're in the middle of a move to the 909, we probably won't have a chance to get together for at least a week or more. I've got a fairly heavy work schedule next week but I should be free for the weekend. If you're settled by then, we might find some time to play.
Speaking of play, I was in the middle of composing a short fantasy about your desire to experience your first encounter me as a BDSM virgin when I realized I'd been negligent about sending you a fresh training assignment. It's probably in your email by now.
I've been up since six this morning so I'm off to bed right now. I anticipate your response to your assignment when I wake up in the morning.
JayMac
4/19/08
Jay Mac,
So, befoere i go into detail... when is the second half of Your story going to be posted? I need to know what happens next!!??
Anyway, tonite i did as You asked me to do and looked for a nice switch, and i couldn’t find one other then a wire coat hanger... so i used that. i went into the bathroom and put that dildo up my ass... and with my pussy i have gotten all 5 fingers in up to my wrist and had whipped my pussy until i had to piss/// i had fisted and whipped myself about 6 times until i had to whip it an extra 6 times to pee and pissed on the toilet and licked it clean and in the mean time telling myself i want to be a nasty slut just for You! As soon as i was ready to cum i pulled the dildo from my ass and licked it clean also and made sure i came just for You!!!
i’m very sorry i dont have a pic to send to You my sis has my cam... but i have this urge to be owned and told what to do i need that in my life and i want You to be the one to do it for me...
i’m looking forward to meeting You and reading my story :)
**hugs**kisses**~Abbie
Abbie’s First Time Fantasy:
You imagine meeting me as a BDSM Virgin. Okay let's try that on for size. Our first encounter is at a cheap motel. I like cheap motels. The walls are thin and the need to keep things quiet load the session with a tension that heightens the experience. I stop by and pick you up and we drive a few miles from your place and check in. There's a coffee shop down the street for the tomorrow morning.
This is how it goes:
You are nervous and excited. I seem relaxed but it's just part of my role as a Dom. In reality I'm carefully looking for which buttons to push and I'm not really sure how to go about getting you into the right space so that I can take what I want and give you what you need. Tonight we're going to see how your limits load into our play. I'm explicit in my condition that you are going to ask, perhaps beg, for each torment and to accomplish that we're role-playing. I the classically twisted psychologist, and you’re a wannbe punk brat with a bad attitude in court ordered therapy. This is a field session, out of the clinical environment with the open possibility of actualizing your fantasies.
We began at a department store, selecting a casual wardrobe. I choose your clothes: a sheer purple corset, a bright yellow tank top with a silk screened black skull and Gothic text with the challenge, "Punks get off on abuse." It goes well with your faded loose jeans and we add a studded leather belt that rides on your hips and reveals the top of the crack in your butt to complete the ensemble so we have a bratty little girl whose up to mischief with her shrink.
I check us in while you sit in the car. You're alone for those few minutes, very nervous about this first encounter, hoping to please, and waiting to see what will happen. I return with our key and we park next to our room on the ground floor at the end of the building. It takes me a couple of passes to figure out how the key card works but we finally manage to get into the room, which is nothing remarkable. It's generic cheap motel: a table, a lamp, two chairs, a mass produced framed graphic on the wall, a queen size bed, a credenza, a television, a small closet with a floor length mirror, next to a small bathroom.
I've brought a bottle of wine, some beer, and two bags into the room and I hand you the key card and send you off to find the ice machine. When you return, you find a DVD Camera on a tripod and me hooking a cable from a digital adapter into the motel TV. I press a button on the camera and the image of the empty chair against the wall appears on the TV screen.
I pour you a plastic glass of wine and tell you to take a seat. You can see yourself on the screen and you cross your legs and kick off your sandals. Barefoot, with your nipples erect in the cool air from the air conditioner, we begin. I ask the questions and you answer: "Abbie, this is the time we explore your needs, but I’m imposing the condition of absolute honesty. Now why are we here?"
You sip your wine, look at your image on the TV and draw a deep breath, "I'm tired of sitting in your office waiting for the clock to ring after fifty minutes so your next client can interrupt us."
“Not to worry,” I say, “We're here for as long as you want and there's no one to interrupt. Now what do you want?"
"I don't know," you reply, "Maybe I want to tell you all about what kind of filthy slut I've been. Maybe I want you to spank my ass. Maybe I want you to fuck me. Maybe I want you to grab my hair and pull your dick out of my greasy shit hole then fuck my face while you whip my butt with your belt. I've had all kinds of nasty fantasies while we've been wasting time in your office."
I jump on that cue and take a long moment before I firmly suggest, “Stand up and pull off your jeans, then sit back down and play with yourself while you tell me about the first time you were sexually aroused at the thought of submission.”
“Just what I thought,” you say as you unbuckle your belt, “Just another dirty old man after some sweet young ass!”
You start to do some nasty stripper moves until I reach out and lightly slap your butt and you moan, “Ohh Daddy do that again!”
I’m smiling and I feign irritation, “Quit screwing around and get back in the chair!”
“Yes Sir,” you reply as you obey, “I knew you’d turn out to be a pervert.”
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Jay Mac,
i’m so sorry it took forever to get back to You!! Slut Bunny huh? i like that as well! And yes i did fist my pussy i think i could have gotten up to my wrists if i had longer arms lol. And as far as my number goes i am deeply sorry about that also... my cell phone number is XXX-XXX-0021, it would work better if you called me at nights... i had to move in with my mom for the time being and i don’t need her to ask any questions....
Anyway, no i have not been to counseling... but i think i can do this:
Fantasies....hmmm, just to have my total control taken from me by my Master who knows all the right spots, how to care for me just as much as he knows how to please me with bondage, humiliation, spanking, clamps, rope, a collar, but mostly i want someone i can also please, some one i can honestly trust and try new things knowing he won’t hurt me.
Well i hope that answered Your question. I want to let You know honestly that i am nervous about this whole thing... not knowing what may happen... i have never given out my number to just anyone... please consider these feelings....
Anyway, i am looking forward to reading the 2nd half of CL woman and reading my own story. Now about my punishment.... i deserve to be punished for forgetting such an important part of my last email... please show mercy! :)
~Abbie
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“None of that silliness,” I reply, “No Sir or Master. Whatever happens this weekend will ultimately be your choice. Now back to your first arousal at the thought of submission, was that before or after you became sexually active?”
“It was actually after I had become sexually active. I knew I was submissive to men, but I wasn’t sure what it meant. An ex boyfriend got me into showing my submissive feelings and acting out on them,” you shudder just a bit when the third finger slips between your swelling labia. “You seem to enjoy watching yourself,” I say, “Why not spread your legs open and have a better view?”
With a naughty grin you take my suggestion and say, “This is fun.”
I adjust the zoom on the video camera, opening up the field of view so you can see your fingers slip in and out of your wet pussy, “Now tell me about your first sexual experience.”
“It was in middle school... I had this boyfriend who was in high school and he invited me over one day while his parents were at work. It was a pretty rough first time... he tore my clothes off and fucked me in the ass, and then he fucked my pussy so hard he made me bleed and made me cum on his dick,” you groan as your thighs tremble. With four fingers in your slippery hole, we can both hear the wet slosh of your cum. You giggle and say, “I still have my ripped jeans from that actually!”
I make a quick note and ask, “Did you just come while you answered?”
“Maybe, just a little when I remembered his dick up my ass,” you reply. I chuckle, make another note, and teasingly admonish, “Well let’s keep the orgasms to a minimum until we complete this inventory. Middle school, and you were already an anal slut bunny. How precocious…”
You interrupt and protest, “Oh no, other than that first time, I didn’t start getting into anal until I was in my last year of high school. It was my ex boyfriend’s good friend. We would mostly have anal sex. We started out with it and ended with it! We’d have sex anywhere, sometimes it would be at his house, my house in the morning, or we would drive out to the beach and park. It was wonderful! That’s when I became a slut bunny.”
I make another note and ask, “On the beach and in the park, did you stay in the car, or were you into public sex?”
“We mostly fucked in the car, but there was this one time when me and a girlfriend of mine went out to the beach with these 2 guys... to make a long story short my girlfriend was fucking in the back seat of my car and I was getting fucked outside of the car leaning on my trunk!! It was cold outside just enough to keep my nipples hard but feel the warmth of my body,” you answer. I notice that both hands are busy between your legs and ask, “Would you like a toy – perhaps something to put up your ass?”
“Oh fuck,” you moan, “If I had my toy in my butt I’d come in a second.”
I reach over and pull a foot long string of bright yellow urethane anal beads from my black bag. “Turn the chair around, then straddle the seat with your plump bottom over the edge.”
You obey and I adjust the camera angle, “Let’s lose that tank top so we can see that lovely lace corset. Now this is your exercise in restraint. You are going to lube your pretty pink asshole with your fingers and your mouth. One finger goes from your mouth, into your ass, then two fingers, then three, then four. Then you’re going to push this string of beads up your slut bunny butt and after you answer each of my questions, you will push one bead out of your asshole.”
You look from me to the camera to the TV and suck on your index finger. You reach back and push it into your butt. You moan and grind your hips back into your hand; then you put two fingers into your mouth. “That’s nasty,” you say as you arch your back and push both fingers up your ass, “You’re a nasty old man.”
“And you are a nasty Slut Bunny who gets off with toys in her filthy shit hole,” I reply.
It only takes a few minutes for you to get all of the beads up your ass, and as I sit back with my notebook you finish off your glass of wine. “More wine please,” you ask. I feign irritation as I fill your plastic glass and pull a long neck beer from the ice bucket. I pick up my notebook again and you giggle, “Thank you Sir, may I play with my pussy while we do this?”
“Of course,” I reply, “but you may not come until we’ve finished and you are sucking on your beads. Now, have you ever engaged in sex in front of other people?”
With your hand between your legs you come back with, “Do you mean before tonight?”
“Very funny, answer the question.”
“Or what,” you say, “If I don’t answer will the Pervert Shrink spank his naughty Slut Bunny?”
“Actually, if your answers to all my questions are what I expect, the first thing I’ll do after we’ve finished is pull you over my knee and spank you until you beg me for permission to come. Now answer the question.”
You close your eyes, arch your back, and push the first bead out of your ass, “Yes Sir! That night at the beach after my girlfriend finished fucking her man, they got out of the car to see ‘if everything was going alright,’ but they just wanted to see me getting fucked.”
I make my note and say, “You seem to be fascinated with spanking. How did that get started?”
“Well the first time was about two years ago. I was horny and a little drunk, hanging out with another ex boyfriend and we ended up in bed in my room. I was on top doing what a Slut Bunny does best when he just lightly slapped my ass and ever since then I had to have my butt spanked harder and harder…I just can’t get enough of it!! Every time I get a spanking, it brings me even closer to cummming!”
Another two beads slip out of your ass and I look at the TV. “Are those three beads sticking out of your bottom,” I ask. You grin and wiggle your butt, “Ooops!”
I stand up, walk over to spread your ass open, and sure enough an extra bead is wedged between your plump cheeks. I land a sharp swat on your bottom and another bead pops out. After I’ve pushed the entire string back into your asshole, I slap the other side of your butt and present my fingers to your lips. You pout and then suck them clean. “Now we need only four more answers to complete your inventory, so it gets a bit more tricky. You will push out three beads after each answer. Remember this is an exercise in self-control. If you screw up then they all go back up your hole and we continue until you get it right,” reaching back into my bag I produce a wicked thin plastic paddle and scold, “For every bead that goes back into your pretty bum, you’ll be getting ten licks with this little beast. So far you’ve earned thirty, now other than having your butt spanked, what other fetishes arouse you?”
Your fingers busily dance over your clit and you moan, “Slut Bunny gets off on porn, especially BDSM. When I worked at a porn shop called Adam and Eve some lesbians returned a rental movie, with a really hot bondage cover. It turned me on so I took it home and I couldn’t keep my eyes off the screen! The pleasure mixed in with the pain and total loss of control excited me to where I was getting wet and had to make myself cum that night! It was so hot!!”
You’ve got four fingers in your pussy and five beads dangling out of your ass when you come. Three extra beads slip out of your gaping hole, which earns you another slap on the bottom, another eighty swats for the beads and twenty more for cummming without permission. As you’re sucking your nasty ass juice from my fingers, I scold you again, “So far you’ve earned an OTK spanking and a hundred swats with my paddle. If I were a suspicious pervert, I think you’re messing up on purpose…Now tell me what happened with all this newly discovered excitement.”
Lightly clamping your teeth over my fingertip, you reach inside your purple corset and pinch your nipple, “I’m sorry but Slut Bunny’s pussy just got too wet. She tries to be a good girl but her fingers go crazy and before you know it she’s over the edge. Anyway I kept that movie over the weekend and then took some more home. I noticed that one guy who came in was renting the same movies that I’d taken home so when he came to the counter one day and asked for anything new, I recommended a couple of titles. When he returned them, we got to talking and he claimed he had an open relationship with his wife. I thought to myself, ‘Yeah, right, he could be so lucky.’ It was late and the manger came by to close up, so one thing led to another, and I took him home with me that night. We had hours of great sex then I found out he wasn’t BS’ing me. Since I brought him over to my place, I had to drive him home. It was after two in the morning when we got to his place. After a few drinks and a chat with his wife, I ended up drunk, licking his dick, licking her pussy and I had them all over me. I got fucked and licked at the same time and oh my God it was great!!!”
This time only one extra bead slipped out of your butt hole. Another pink handprint on your bottom and you earned ten more swats with the paddle. As I pushed the last bead back in, I ask, “How many swats have you earned?”
“A hundred,” you answer.
“A hundred and ten,” I correct you as I present my fingers. This time there’s a slight brown smear on my index finger. “Ewww,” you whine. I grab a handful of your hair with my other hand and say, “Punks love abuse, so you’ve got a choice to make – clean my fingers or we’ll have to double up. That will be two hundred and twenty.”
After you’ve sucked my fingers, I release your hair and say in my Mr. Burns voice, “Excellent, but since you can’t keep count, I’m afraid we’ll be doubling your punishment. Now tell me about the most extreme fetish you’ve ever done.”
You smile and reply, “After that crazy night, the three of us went out for breakfast and talked. Turns out they were both into BDSM and although she subbed for him, she was into sharing him with maybe a little switch on me. We ended up living together for a while. I supplied the porn and they worked me over in their little dungeon. I guess our most extreme session was when I ended up chained to the ceiling and floor suspended by my wrists and ankles while she taped my boobs so they went all purple with my nipples standing out like Hershey Kisses.”
This time you can’t manage to get three beads out without screwing up, so after you’ve earned almost five hundred swats for your paddling, I give up. Leaning over your back, I’m pinching your nipple and slowly fucking your nasty shit hole with the bead string, “We’ll call it an even five hundred strokes, and distribute it over this evening. Now are you interested in expanding your extremes?”
You are pumping your pussy and grinding your teeth, desperately trying not to come. Inhaling deeply you answer, “Isn’t that why we’re here?”
“Just what comes to your Slut Bunny mind?”
Your boobs are completely out of the top of the corset and you’re pinching your other nipple, “Hhmmm, to have control totally taken from me by somebody who knows all the right spots, how to care for me just as much as he knows how to please me with bondage, humiliation, spanking, clamps, rope, a collar, but mostly I want someone I can also please, some one I can honestly trust and try all kinds of nasty new things he knows won’t hurt me.”
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