The Captain:
You would think a man who had all the things I have would be content.
Katherine means so much to me it almost hurts. Pain and pleasure for the body I
understand, but for the mind?
She shows me so much love it's close to being adoration. She does for me with
such feeling that I am in constant heaven, always looking forward to getting
home to her and our next adventure.
The thing is I love her, more and more as each day passes. So deeply I just
cannot describe it. It just burns up inside me. Why can't I tell her, why can't
I relax enough to show her the depth of my love. She does to me.
Perhaps I'm taking too much from her. Perhaps I feel guilty. After all, how can
you explain hurting someone so much, and then profess to love.
There are things I still have to teach Katherine, more things to enjoy, more
things for me to take from her, but you know there are also things I love to do
that I would never do to Katherine. That may be a reflection of the love I have.
Another woman pleasing Katherine, for my pleasure...a man helping me to satisfy
her body. They are things I would just love to do, but not with Katherine. She
is too precious. She is my prize, and I want to keep that prize all to myself.
Selfish? Maybe. But there you are.
If we can just get past the learning, the experimenting, then I should feel
easier about it. Then our bond will be complete, and we can go on in our lives,
continuing to enjoy our sexuality, loving each other, her through her complete
giving, me through the wonderful feeling of having someone so completely.
The perfect relationship.
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